The long term effects of abuse:

“The truth about childhood is stored up in our bodies and lives in the depths of our souls. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings can be numbed and manipulated, our perceptions shamed and confused, our bodies tricked with medication, but our soul never forgets. And because we are one, whole soul in one body, someday our body will present its bill” By Alice Miller

"911" Call I made to report the abuse from my abuser (8-17-08), I am proud of myself for finally reporting the abuse and no longer cowering down to him....

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Martina McBride - A Broken Wing

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Federal Judge Dismisses Lt. Shawn Murray's Federal lawsuit in which he claimed he was falsely arrested for Domestic Violence August 17, 2008

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On July 23, 2010 I was deposed for Mr. Murray's Federal suit against CPD and Lt. Reno, it was the first time I got to use my voice (it is not the last). The Judge then dismissed

Mr. Murray's lawsuit in which he claimed he was falsely arrested.

The "system" (DA's office) failed to hold Mr. Murray accountable for abusing me, despite the evidence that clearly showed the abuse I sustained. The message to Mr. Murray and other abusers is "We only prosecute 3-4% of those arrested for abuse, so go ahead and abuse others because we will not hold you accountable for your actions, nor will you have any consequences for violating the law".

Unfortunately, his ex-wife, ex-girlfriend, and I sent him that message for 23 years (there is documented abuse from all 3 of us). We covered for Mr. Murray out of fear, I stopped covering for him and his abuse on August 17, 2008.

Carlsbad Police Department acted appropriately and responsibly when I called "911" to report the abuse. The Federal Judge has acted appropriately and responsibly by dismissing his Federal lawsuit in which he claimed he was "falsely arrested".

This "system" asks, "Why didn't you call the police?", then in the same breath they say, "Oh, we're not filing charges against the person who abused you."

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Can you "see" me? Can you "hear" me? Please "listen" to the unspoken words...

Shande Carpenter

Jun 26, 2010

Beautiful, uplifting, and relevant to life....

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Courage Is - The Strange Familiar [Full Song]

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Courage Is by The Strange Familiar Full song with Lyrics in video check out their youtube channel:http://uk.youtube.com/user/thestrangefamiliar and subscribe to them! --UPDATE-- The Strange Familiar posted an acoustic video of the song! Please go check it out!!!http://www.youtube.co/...

Don't give up, you are stronger then you realize.... you have survived IF you are alive, so speak up for those that didn't....

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When Life has you feeling Down, Keep these Words in Mind...

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This is just a little inspirational video I put together.

May your journey be blessed with the discovery of "your own strength".....

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"The Oak Tree"

A mighty wind blew night and day

It stole the oak trees leaves away,

Then snapped its boughs and pulled its bark

Until the oak tree was tired and stark.

But still the oak tree held its ground

While other trees fell all around

The weary wind gave up and spoke,

"How could you still be standing oak?"

The oak tree said, "I know that you

can break each branch of mine in two

Carry every leaf away,

Shake my limbs, and make me sway.

But I have roots stretched in the earth,

Growing stronger since my birth.

You'll never touch them for you see,

They are the deepest part of me.

Until today, I wasn't sure

Of just how much I could endure.

But now I've found that thanks to you.

"I'm stronger then I ever knew."

I wish I would have heard these words...instead, I felt the pain but never got the "I'm sorry that I hurt you....I never meant to make you cry". My abuser "meant to make me cry", that way I was weak and to borrow his word, "Pathetic".... he liked me weak and "pathetic" so he could feel big, powerful, in control...

Casey James - Jealous Guy

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John Lennon - Jealous Guy By Casey James I was dreaming of the past. And my heart was beating fast, I began to lose control, I began to lose control, I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry that I mad you cry, I didn't want to hurt you, I'm just a jealous guy, I was feeling insecure,

What we do with "Trauma".. Beautiful song and lyrics by by Evanescence http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QahGi4-WdCM