What we do with "Trauma".. Beautiful song and lyrics by by Evanescence http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QahGi4-WdCM
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Friday, November 27, 2009
While going through my journals and writing my manuscript, I realized how much God answered my prayers on August 17, 2008. In a paragraph from my journal (from before 8-17-08), I wrote:
"These chains to Shawn bind me and keep me in a place of torture around the clock.... I need someone to cut the chains that prevent me from moving/escaping this painful place...It is hurting me too much God, do you see that? What is the purpose now? really...do I need to learn something else here God?? Please teach it to me now. I feel like I'm paddling in the deep blue ocean, my arms heavy and tired. I'm exhausted, I'm lost, there are no "signs" and I start to lose the ability to paddle. I'm not even sure which way I should be paddling, where is N/S or E/W...where is there land? There is no end in sight...at that moment, all I want to know is, will I survive this? Is there a shore? Will someone rescue me?"
"These chains to Shawn bind me and keep me in a place of torture around the clock.... I need someone to cut the chains that prevent me from moving/escaping this painful place...It is hurting me too much God, do you see that? What is the purpose now? really...do I need to learn something else here God?? Please teach it to me now. I feel like I'm paddling in the deep blue ocean, my arms heavy and tired. I'm exhausted, I'm lost, there are no "signs" and I start to lose the ability to paddle. I'm not even sure which way I should be paddling, where is N/S or E/W...where is there land? There is no end in sight...at that moment, all I want to know is, will I survive this? Is there a shore? Will someone rescue me?"
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Music soothes the soul, inspires the mind, gives hope where there was none, and warms the heart....
http://www.tangle.com/view_video?viewkey=c377c388df7477a84ec4&utm_source=newsletter1104&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=weeklytopvideos
http://www.tangle.com/view_video?viewkey=c377c388df7477a84ec4&utm_source=newsletter1104&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=weeklytopvideos
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
May you all reach this destination, it truly will set you free...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3D4VMZb8wLY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3D4VMZb8wLY
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
No words spoken, every word heard... Forgiveness is as much for you as it is for the person you are forgiving... forgiving others of their wrong doings will set you free..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yW759z7HsTw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yW759z7HsTw
Monday, October 26, 2009
Actual "911" call to police. I encourage ALL parents to view this...
It would only be years later, that I would see and hear about the effects my abuser had on my children. As a mother, nothing is more painful then to see your pain become your childrens... I was hiding behind denial to protect myself, so I didn't have to feel or see my own pain or their pain. The problem with "hiding", is that "everything that is hidden, is someday found".
I wish I would have seen how my children were being effected by staying with the man who abused me. Instead, years later, when my children had to write statements, I saw and felt their pain in the words they wrote. Their statements hurt me worse then the years of abuse from my abuser.
A few sentences from my son's statement read, "I can recall that he was grossly condescending towards my mother, often using innapropriate language in front of my sister and I. Any attempts to stick up for my mother would result in threatening remarks delivered in an intimidating manner. I can remember my mother crying on several occasions due to remarks, threats, and insults directed at her."
A sentence my daughter wrote in a statement read, "....everyday he tried to posion all of us with the devil inside of him".
This site is a real call to "911" by a 6 year old girl. This girl grew up and was in relationships with abusive men. She now has become an advocate for domestic violence and this "911" call is used in training for police officers around the country.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8DilRTRoFc
It would only be years later, that I would see and hear about the effects my abuser had on my children. As a mother, nothing is more painful then to see your pain become your childrens... I was hiding behind denial to protect myself, so I didn't have to feel or see my own pain or their pain. The problem with "hiding", is that "everything that is hidden, is someday found".
I wish I would have seen how my children were being effected by staying with the man who abused me. Instead, years later, when my children had to write statements, I saw and felt their pain in the words they wrote. Their statements hurt me worse then the years of abuse from my abuser.
A few sentences from my son's statement read, "I can recall that he was grossly condescending towards my mother, often using innapropriate language in front of my sister and I. Any attempts to stick up for my mother would result in threatening remarks delivered in an intimidating manner. I can remember my mother crying on several occasions due to remarks, threats, and insults directed at her."
A sentence my daughter wrote in a statement read, "....everyday he tried to posion all of us with the devil inside of him".
This site is a real call to "911" by a 6 year old girl. This girl grew up and was in relationships with abusive men. She now has become an advocate for domestic violence and this "911" call is used in training for police officers around the country.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8DilRTRoFc
Sunday, October 25, 2009
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